And just like that, I have a 2 year old

A letter to Clyde. Happy Birthday to my beautiful boy.

I genuinely feel like I’ve known you forever. You have been the greatest lesson in my life and I’m absolutely a better human since becoming your mum.

I will cherish forever that you have given me the opportunity to feel unconditional love. To look at you daily knowing that I grew every little part of you inside me (big shout out to my body for allowing me to do this). The feelings of connection I get with you. It’s something I can’t quite put into words but I think you left little reminders of you inside of me so we will always be uniquely connected.

There’s been highs and lows as I ride the roller-coaster of motherhood. Some things came way easier than I thought and others not so much. I’m really hard on myself at times as I want you to have a life full of love, support, trust and connection and to do so, I need to work on re-writing some of my past and look forward to our future. I know in my heart of hearts though that you feel loved from head to toe. I honestly melt every time I see you.

You are so funny. So unbelievably charismatic and way ahead of your years. You are like my best friend as well as my son. We laugh in ways I didn’t think was possible with such a wee person but you are hilarious and such great company. I love our adventures with dad and our special time when it’s just me and you. My heart fills whenever I am with you and it’s the most wonderful feeling in the world.

I am so proud of the little boy you have become. The world is lucky to have you but not as lucky as me to be able to call you my son. You brighten anywhere you go, bring joy to others without trying and are just the most loving wee guy I have ever been lucky enough to meet.

I can’t wait for us to make a lifetime of memories together. I’ll never forget our first 2 years together, watching your grow from a newborn to a baby to a toddler. Wow. Thank god for Apple iCloud for storing all of the virtual memories as I never want to forget them.

And now for toddlerhood. Another chance for me to learn even more about you, as well as myself. Will it be easy. No. Will it be amazing. Yes. I love you Clyde. Always and Forever. xxx